I think I'm going to start updating again on here.

This is something I wrote today, it's not as big as our old school updates but I really don't feel like going balls to the walls. Feel free to comment about anything ever.

Indie kick.

Oh comely, I will be with you when you lose your breath,
Chasing the only meaningful memory you thought you had left.
With some pretty, bright and bubbly terrible scene
That was doing her thing on your chest.

But oh comely,
It isn't as pretty as you'd like to guess
In your memory, you're drunk on your awe, to me
It doesn't mean anything at all.

Oh comely,
All of your friends are all letting you blow,
Bristling and ugly, bursting with fruits falling out from the holes
Of some pretty, bright, and bubbly friend
You could need to say comforting things in your ear

But oh comely,
There isn't such one friend that you could find here.
Standing next to me,
He's only my enemy
I'll crush him with everything I own.

Say what you want to say
Hang for your hollow ways
Moving your mouth to pull out
All your miracles aimed for me.

Your father made fetuses with flesh licking ladies,
While you and your mother were asleep in the trailer park.
Thunderous sparks from the dark of the stadiums,
The music and medicine you needed for comforting.
So make all your fat fleshy fingers to moving,
And pluck all your silly strings, bend all your notes for me.
Soft silly music is meaningful magical,
The movements were beautiful, all in your ovaries.
All of them milking with green fleshy flowers,
While powerful pistons were sugary sweet machines.
Smelling of semen all under the garden
Was all you were needing when you still believed in me.

Say what you want to say.
Hang for your hollow ways.
Moving your mouth to pull out
All your miracles aimed for me.

And I know they buried her body with others,
Her sister and mother and five-hundred families.
And will she remember me fifty years later?
I wished I could save her in some sort of time machine.

Know all your enemies.

We know who our enemies are.

Goldaline, my dear,
We will fold and freeze together
Far away from here.
There is sun and spring and green forever.

But now we move to feel for ourselves inside some stranger's stomach.

Place your body here,
Let your skin begin to blend itself with mine.

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You're Fallin Apart, Kid.

1.) You're holding something in tonight
And I can tell you're not alright
Your poker face concealing
All the cards that you're not dealing

2.) I let you down so many times
But I can't ever tell you this
There is no forgiving it
I promised you I'd always be there
But that couldn’t be less true
It's the worst thing I could do

3.) There is something I want you to know
I think you know exactly what it is
I didn't want to save you
I set our house on fire To watch it burn

4.) I've always been your favorite game
And all the world's your sparkling stage
Just another extra in your play, the fool

5.) And now that war has been declared,
How long until bombs burst in air
We've come too far
Just to let this die, to throw this away

6.) I wake up in the afternoon
Empty walls make up the room
And I'm wishing for one thing
To give myself the strength
to keep myself alive

7.) you'll look down on me,
with eyes of endless tragedy
try and stop the pain,
but there's never closure
find your solace in what you could have been

8.) I've gone days without food
I've went weeks without sleep
Keeping this in
I've got cuts I can't close
I've got wounds that won't heal
It's all your fault

9.) I've been shattered and wrecked
My hand's covered in blood
Scars on my skin
I forgot how to feel now I'm weak with deceit
My skin is paper thin

10.) Shooting daggers at me
Letting it be known you're not impressed
I never fail at failing all your tests
Don't be so proud
'Cause you're still so scared to be alone

11.) And I know I need your comfort
but this drama makes me sick
And the longer I lay here I know it's
harder to get up without you

12.) Counting down, make that sounds
And you know it makes no sense
Counting down, 'til you mess around
And I know you can't ever change

AND I'M TELLING YOU I'M A FAKE

1.)Today I fell and felt better
just knowing this matters,
I just feel stronger.. and sharper!
I found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing

2.)It’s all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

3.)For awhile I was cleaner than now
then I started to destroy myself
with things that I love now the things that i hate
until it finally broke me

4.)If we cut out the bad,
Well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
You stabbed me to death

5.)She had an earthquake on her mind
I almost heard her cry out as I left her far behind
and knew the world was crashing down around her

6.)Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake

7.)My stomach hurts now
And all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg, for anything
To hit me in the face
And this sickness isn't me

8.)Let it bleed
And take the red for what it's worth
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
you might wanna sing, or scream it

9.)Over and over again
Light with the sharpened edge
Cut to the black, empty space we call sky
Beginning the cycle that stays
And I know in my heart we all die

10.)Is there another side
Beyond the black and white
Like the day and night
Like the sun in the sky
All of this I’m giving up

11.)I don't see anything now
So Just say what you want to say
It's kind of funny how i'm not listening anyway

12.)I’m so far gone now
I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on?

13.)Left the only worries I had in my hands
away form the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
cause feelings mean nothing

14.)And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standig top the bright lit city
Being half-dead wasn't what I planned to be

15.) I am fairly agile. I can bend and not break.
Or I can break and take it with a smile.
I am so resilient. I recover quickly.
I'll convince you soon that i am fine.

16.) Try to understand,
theres an old mistake that fools will make.
And i'm the king of them,
pushing everything that's good away.

17.)  Man it takes a silly girl
to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one
to wish that she had never dreamt at all

18.) Dig your ditch deep enough
To keep you clear of the sun
You've been burned more than once
You don't think much of trust

19.) These cuts are leaving creases
trace the scars to fit the pieces
to tell your story,
you don't need to say a word
if you can't leave it be,
might as well make it bleed

20.) your wires and frayed,can't fire right
you look better when out of sight
you were not made to stand and fight
there's something better wrong with you

21.) Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars